i take every event as a new opportunity to learn. i guess i can say i am blessed to see the good and the bad as…well good lol… there is nothing in this world that happens without having a purpose. people are put into your life, as well as taken out, for you to grow. I guess in the face of adversity its hard to see the big picture but every tear, every laugh, every hello and every goodbye has a meaning. the effects may not be immediate, but eventually, you will look back and say “ahh, now i get it”. 

Its funny because even for me its hard sometimes. i always believed my first love would be the one. one of those fairy tales that only happens to one in a million…i just couldnt see anything else, i was so happy. But, as i said sometimes things just arent meant to work out the way you think they are. and although sometimes i find myself reminiscing on the old days when things just seemed so perfect, i am happy again. 

i met a stranger recently, by pure coincidence and i did something i didnt think i was capable of doing, i just threw myself in there and took a chance to see what would happen. this stranger has opened my eyes to so many things. its funny because in a sense he has been a part of the reason i can smile again. from one aspect, he isnt exactly the person i’d thought he be and well, thank god i was able to figure that part out sooner rather than later. But, on the other hand, he has been the push i needed to finally step out into the world again. 

i have always said finding happiness is the key to having a fulfilling life and i stand by that. but its not about finding someone or something to create that happiness for you, its about finding it from within. the mistake that many make is being dependent on other things or other to give them the satisfaction but time has shown me that expectations like that will only lead to disappointment. now, dont get me wrong, its okay for someone or something to make you happy but its not okay to DEPEND on that something or someone for that happiness…see the difference?

anyway enough of my rant, i guess im just happy and i want everyone to get to this level, its the reason i want to be a psychologist, to help those that cant get to this state alone…

soooo, good night world hope you are happpyyy! <3